I’m Nothing To You

You stand still like I’m not here
You shut your mouth like I have gone out
You do nothing, say nothing like I’m nothing… to you

What I’m gonna do is waiting for you
To do what you should do
Give me lots of word, not just one or two

But i think it’s not gonna happen
All the letters have gone to heaven
High up in the skies of seven
Leave me dying here and rotten…

_____________
January 31, 2010

The Moon Has Fallen

Nothing to say, the rain drifted my words away
No place to stay, the love was taken away
The moon has fallen, the heart has broken
I’m here, fighting against my own demon

The fight of good and bad,
Happy and sad
Love and hate,
But I think it’s too late….

Looks like the demons win,
They’re laughing loud on my sins

Now I’m waiting for forgiveness
From you, not from others
Thousands rivers won’t be enough to wash me
From my sins, and from all the demons in me

The Last Date With the Moon

Here I am, standing in the brink of the day
Staring at the sun that has gone away
And a smile upon your face,
Make me never wanna leave this place

There you are, hardly I can see cause you just so far
I see your eyes blinking, are you a star?
But I remember you said you’re a moon
So I should have seen you soon

And here we are now,
You come to me somehow
You are getting closer and closer,
But why I feel like a stranger?

I remember,
It’s been 365 nights since the last goodbye
It’s too long for me, that’s the reason why

Now please come down, get lower
I’m on the top of the tower and can’t go higher
I have something to say to you
I need to tell you, that… I wanna stop loving you

_____________
February 5, 2010

A letter to a friend

It’s always hurt to see you cry
To see tears falling like rain from the sky
And there’s no answer for why
I never question myself, I never try

It’s always hurt to know there’s nothing I can do
And fact that I don’t even know what to do
It’s so sad but so true
Feels like the color blue

Someday we’ll see we were wrong
And then we realize the day has done
Time won’t turn back, it’s no use to regret
It’s not easy to say good bye, but someway we have to try

Sometimes it’s hurt to remember
About the days we had together
And a piece of heart inside me
Carved with your smile, you can see…

It was the day when I used to care
Think about you, anytime, anywhere
The day when I used to drive you home
When the night was so cold and you were alone

That’s just history, saved properly in my memory
Now we are so far and so different, and yet so silent….
No voices when you say, just few words on my display
That’s OK. Thanks anyway….

PS. I’m sad about the problem you had
But don’t worry my friend,
I’ll be the man when you look behind

______________
January 25, 2010

Rasa Itu -ternyata- Masih Di Sini

rasa itu masih di sini
meski telah bertransformasi
menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin tak kau mengerti
karena aku juga tak mengerti

rasa ini telah berbeda
sudah tak seperti dulu kala
meski tak semuanya berubah
ku rasa isinya masih sama,
tentang kamu…

ya, kau memang masih di sini
meski tak seperti dulu lagi
sudah tak ada kata cinta untukmu
meski masih ku lakukan semua demi kamu

tak perlu kau cari tahu jawabnya
telah ku hilangkan semua tanda tanya
tak perlu juga kau curiga kepadaku
karena bukan kamu di hatiku
karena ku tak butuh lagi memilikimu

kau memang masih di sini
tapi bukan di dalam hati
ku biarkan kau di kepalaku
berdiam diri atau berlari sesukamu
menari-nari atau bahkan bertelanjang diri
aku tak peduli
asal jangan kau pergi…

Marina #2

Aku tahu,
Tak seharusnya ku merindumu
Tak sepantasnya ku mendambamu
Tak semestinya cinta bersemi
Ketika tak ada lagi tempat di hati

Mungkin ini sebuah konsekuensi
Atas sebuah kebodohan diri
Yang hanya bisa meletakkanmu di pikiranku
Tanpa pernah bisa menyentuhmu

Entah mengapa,
Kurasakan sensasi begitu menguasai
Tubuhku melayang tinggi
Ketika kau bersamaku,
Meski hanya dalam imaji

Kau tak lagi sendiri
Begitu pun juga aku
Hanya bayanganmu yang ada di sini
Yang memudar ketika cahaya berlalu

Sedih atau bahagia
Entah apa kau menyebutnya
Yang pasti aku tak kan peduli
Selama senyummu masih menghiasi

_______________
September 16, 2009

Love Needs

Love doesn’t need heart to stay
Because heart would break someday
Love doesn’t need words to say
Because words could lost the way

Love just needs a mind to be free
No boundaries between you and me

____________
August 8, 2009

After the message sent,  you replied:
+ Oh God… what’re you try to say to me
I won’t guess, man…
You have problems? Share with me…

> Everything is allright. Too much allright
It’s so clear. You can read to find out the meaning
I said the truth
We are free in our mind
Free to love anyone

+ OK I understand…
So why you say to me?
You feel losing something?

> No.
Why you? I don’t know exactly
I was thinking of it and you crossed my mind
So I sent it to you
Sorry if I bother you

+ Never mind. That’s OK
For a man, fortune, throne and woman are the biggest temptations
Be patience and give it to God
May it be the way to lead you to His bless
Good night….

> For me, THIS LOVE is a gift
It helps me to survive and keep me smiling
Thanks anyway
Good night….

Figure You

Try to figure out what behind your smile
I’m glad to meet you
But my heart breaks too

I see her in you
I see the cheers and the pains
All mixed up in the air,
that I breathe

___________
August 6, 2009

Sepi Malam Ini

kau selalu saja begitu
sejak dulu, sepanjang waktu
kau selalu saja seperti itu
acuhkan ku, meski sepi membekapku

dan senja pun segera berlalu
mengubur semua kisah hari ini
kau dan aku, dan juga senyum manismu
tapi tidak kesendirianku

sampai kapan kau begitu
tersenyum menyaksikanku menelan frustasiku
sampai kapan kau seperti itu
biarkan sunyi menjeratku di malam dingin membeku

kau tak pernah mengerti
betapa senyummu terus menyayat hati
dan kau tak pernah peduli
meski sepi membunuhku malam ini

____________
August 2, 2009

Menguburmu Menghapusmu

aku telah menguburmu
6 kaki di bawah tanah
tapi kau berontak bagai magma
siap meledak dengan dahsyatnya

aku telah menghapusmu
sejak lama, bahkan dari internal memory-ku
tapi kau selalu muncul bagai virus
beranak-pinak di setiap hari-hariku

dan sepenggal kenangan tentangmu
telah kupenggal sekali lagi
tapi secuil senyummu masih terlalu manis
membuat hatiku teriris, tipis-tipis . . .